The hardest thing

The hardest thing is that I had really started to like this guy. When I was visiting him for the weekend, from the time I arrived on the Friday to the time I left on the Sunday, we talked and laughed non-stop. I'd told him about XN and I'd started to feel safe with him.

It's coming up to 3 years now since I kicked XN out and this is the first guy I've met that I've really liked. I was very guarded at first but then let my guard down because he seemed to like me and he was lovely when we were together.

I feel incredibly disappointed that something that I thought was going to be so good has gone wrong. 

How can we have gone from talking, laughing, having great sex, cuddling, feeling comfortable together, and walking along the beach with our arms wrapped each other to a week and a half later, him breaking it off?

That hurts so much.

On the Friday evening, we were sat in the pub, arms around each other, him giving me little kisses and saying that he was glad we'd cleared the air the week before.  

I still don't understand what happened.

I liked him.  

I'm disappointed.